Finding Your What Now?
“Finding My Float” is a personal blog born to help me process the upheaval of emotions and navigate the significant perspective shift that comes hand in hand with a late ADHD diagnosis. It’s more to me than simply a blog about ADHD though. It is a lifeboat and a bridge — a place to move gently forward, let go of friction, find rest, lift and glide, explore my mind and soul — a place to find myself.
The Juicier Version:
Once upon a time, there was this little girl that had no idea she had ADHD even though there were all kinds of signs and evidence everywhere she went. It took almost 45 years and a whole bunch of stuff and a therapist to finally turn the light on for her. She wasn’t a little girl anymore though (even though she still felt like one on the inside).
Straightaway, the unexpected news brought with it such an awakening and unravelling, especially since she managed to make it well into adulthood ahead of the discovery! As soon as the ADHD in her midst was officially identified, she inherited this shiny new, colorful, yet intimidating lens with which to view her past, present and future.
The ADHD Lens
Using that ADHD lens, some supports (some old and some new) and this blog called “Finding My Float” she set sail to get to the bottom of who she really was, what she’s built for, and how she could best contribute to something larger than herself. It’s a matter of understanding, accepting and embracing the real her — as opposed to the hot mess she’s always seen herself to be. Talk about mid-life crisis! Sheesh.
That’s to say, around the same time a not-so-young lady might normally be questioning her identity and self-confidence as she transitions from youth to an “older” adult, she had a bit more to sift through than she expected. She began learning all about her neurodivergent brain wiring and how a real need existed to recognize and replace misguided judgements, negative tapes and unhelpful habits built over a lot of years. To her surprise though, she started recognizing how many systems she’d put into place out of necessity that served her well enough to keep under the radar of getting an earlier diagnosis. There are pros and cons to that story though.
From Chaos to Calm
In fact, it is only now (over a year and a several epiphanies later) that she’s beginning to understand herself a little better and see how she might actually fit in the world. It’s been a clunky step forward, step back, step forward again kind of a groove. Smooth sailing, followed by choppy waters and repeat. Slowly but surely though, she’s still aiming her bow and looking for good winds so that this all-too-familiar sensation of constant chaos can evolve into something closer to calm.
Through this blog and in the face of what feels quite uncertain, she is bravely sharing her intimate pursuit for personal understanding with you. She hopes to shine a light on the challenges as well as the gifts that come with an ADHD diagnosis as she shares her breakthroughs, her struggles and her story with vulnerability and humor.
Won’t You Come Along for the Ride?
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